I've decided to keep it rolling...
So, it's been awhile since I've had sex. I've had opportunity but it just hasn't felt right. Damn you sobriety. Now I'm making a promise to myself. And evidently to anyone who reads this...It's been 4 months now and I'm going to hold off until 6. The next time I have sex I don't want it to be a random, drunken, one nighter. Gone are my days of indifference to sex. As much as I hate it, women can't act like men when it comes to sex. Men can do what they want and get a pat on the back. Women on the other hand get guilt, the slut label and self-imposed punishment for acting on natural, biological impulses. Not that that is why I'm doing this, it's not. I've never cared what people thought of me and I'm not starting now. This is a test. What if? What if I'm out and about, meet someone I am insanely attracted to? What then? I say no. That's what. I've spent the last 3 years giving in to every desire and trust me, it's been fun but it's not gotten me any closer to being who I want to be or where I want to be. Besides, evidently people like prudes. Maybe it's time to start being one? Haha. Never. But I can and will say no, at least until the 6 months are up. That'll be the longest I've gone without sex since I was married. I think I went longer without sex sleeping right next to someone for years than I ever have being single. Maybe that's why relationships scare me so much? The lack of sex! What's the point of being in a committed relationship if you can't get laid when and how much you like? Pointless. Just be single. It's easier.
Anyways, I think I'll need to change the name of this blog soon...
