F%$k this time of year.

I'm tired of....
not feeling good enough.
always being single.
being in the fucking friend zone.
feeling out of place with my family.
missing my friends.
looking for a job.
being in the states.
feeling directionless.
not having a license.
raising other people's children.
not being able to breathe! (fuck this altitude)
life.

I'm thankful for....
my fucked up family.
Katie, Nic and Kirby.
other people's children.
being single and free.
all the traveling I've done.
my health.
my marriage and divorce.
being intelligent and strong.
good sex.
life.

I hate holidays. They just remind me of everything I've never had and everything I did. I hate this time of year.