And here we go...

I have spent the last couple of years exploring who and what I am. I divorced my wife of five years three years ago and since then I've gotten to know myself. There was a lot I found out I liked about myself and there was a lot I discovered I didn't like at all. One thing I discovered was, I'm not gender specific. This came as a shock to quite a few of my gay friends AND my straight friends. It has been confusing, crazy and hilarious. I thought for sure when I started dating men it would be much easier because I assumed men weren't as emotional (insane) as women tend to be. I was wrong. So wrong. The first man I dated after TEN years of only sleeping with/dating women, was essentially, just like many of the women I had dated. Emotional, possessive, jealous and insecure. Um, no thanks. Being the independent and sometimes unemotional woman that I am, that just doesn't work. Then there was the emotionally unavailable jerk who would constantly play the push/pull games. Then there were the numerous men who of course are only interested in one thing. I'm starting to wonder where the "normal" men/women are. I consider myself a pretty good catch. Not jealous, possessive or insecure. I like my alone time as much as anybody else. Friend time is extremely important to me and typically my friends come first (they are my family). I like to get dirty and I love to be outdoors. Drinking beer and bullshitting is one of my favorite activities. I hear men say all the time they want a down to earth, fun girl but when they have a shot at it, they choose the crazy ones. The women that throw fits when they want to have a guys night or won't allow them to have female friends. Ok, the woman is hot and probably great in bed, but is that long term potential? Is that someone you really want to spend your time with? We all have our moments of crazy, men and women alike (especially when alcohol is involved) but when it's on a consistent basis I would think that would get old pretty quick. The past two years of dating men has been extremely interesting, frustrating and very fun. This was just a quick introduction and stick with me, I'll get more organized with my writing as I post more. This is my first blog but I have material for days. Expect a lot on love, marriage, dating and sex. <3