Some of my entries make it seem like I'm ALWAYS having sex. On the contrary, I don't have sex all that often, just when I want it.
You know what hardly ever happens for me? Genuinely liking a person and having an interest in dating them. It's rare that I find that perfect combination of intelligence, gentleman and asshole (someone that can give me just as much shit as I give them) in one person. Plus great sex? What? Let alone finding someone who thinks I'm a gem and tells me so.
I never get emotionally involved. It's just supposed to be sex. Now I have to take the sex off the table. I'm a magnet for the unavailable. (Don't get all therapist on me, I know I attract unavailable because I'm emotionally unavailable. I'm not an idiot.) He's just as fucked up as I am and that's why it works. We're friends before anything else and I don't want to ruin a friendship I enjoy so much. I just wish he wasn't so close to my ideal.
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